Thinking of a title that doesn't sound whiny or emo or just depressing is much to hard. Therefore: Butterflies!!!!

Warning: Ramblings ahead. Some may be incoherent.
So I'm this group on facebook. Minus18.
http://www.facebook.com/groups.php?id=746805559#/group.php?gid=62569954370
If any one's wondering. It " provide[s] a safe space for the same sex attracted youth of Melbourne [and surrounding areas] to meet new people and have fun, whilst also providing a safe way for them to explore the gay 'scene' in a drug and alcohol free environment.
They sent me an invitation on facebook advertising their next dance party, which led to me going to their website to check it out, which led to me showing mum a poster for said party when she wandered into the room, which led to a comment, that I'm sure was meant in no negative way, about how a friend 'might not go to a gay thing' Now, that's slightly paraphrased, she didn't say thing, but I'm pretty sure she didn't say party either, she may have said group.
Anyway, a couple of hours, various websites and a couple of online surveys later and here I am. Wanting to attend a couple of the events listed at their website, the dance party: http://www.minus18.org.au/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=327 next Saturday
and also 2010 Pride March:
http://www.facebook.com/#/event.php?eid=279009845742 Feb 7th.
The moral of this story being I have no one to go with. At least, not to the party. Lauren's totally getting invited to the March as soon as she sets foot in this country again, but when I think about it, she's really the only one ive spoken to extensively about 'all this', in fact, other then the basic, 'oh, just so's you all know, girls is hot too' with the general friendship group, she's really the only one i've spoken to about it at all. Basically what I'm saying is, with her out of the country, I feel like I have no one to talk to about this stuff. My mum tries, told my a story about a friend who had a lesbian sister, and it wasn't fair coz the friend wasn't allowed boys over, but her sister could have girls over coz her parent's didn't know, when i first came out to her in Melbourne. I'm assuming dad knows, but he and I have never spoken about it, and I don't know any girls who are attracted to girls. And I guess I'm wary of breaching the topic with some friends at a more in depth level as I don't know how they'll react, or am afraid of what they'll say if it's one on one. And you guys know me, i thrive on conversation, talking and listening and story swapping, and I need community. I need community in this area. But I don't know how to go about it. I'm also hesitant to bring it up at school/with peers because I don't want to be seen as, i don't know, as though that's all I talk about, or like I'm self centered and want all conversation to lead back to me. I just want to be able to shout about who I am if I want to. I want school to have more resources and more teachings about relationships other than male/female ones. We do have some, but not many. I want the courage to talk about the possibility of starting a support group of some kind for students who are gay, lesbian, bi, pan, omni, queer, intersex, transgender, questioning or just want more information, of tackling homophobia in our school. It may not always be in the form of physical violence, but it is there.
I don't often feel disjointed or out of line with other people i know, it comes and goes.