Emma! The Adventures of Piggly Winks.

RE:'I guess I don't really have that much to say' by emmielou

Ruh-roh. I have to say something.
It's kind of personal in a not-so-personal way.
It's about my, are you ready? feelings.
My feelings and emotions.
The things I talk to others about least of all the possible topics of discussion.
It's just the way I am.
But here goes nothing.

Recently the original blogger on this site (emmielou, duh) wrote a blog regarding having fun. She said that she wasn't having any. She said she was constantly angry (well, not in so many words but I assume this is the case considering she wanted to smash mirrors and throw things). I had a few weeks recently where I was feeling almost the same as her, the difference being I was feeling angry.
The truth is I wasn't feeling anything.
At all.
At any stage.
For two weeks.
I'm not trying to undermine any of the feelings Emma was experiencing so I'm really sorry if that's the way I come off.
And I'm also sorry if that comes off as stuck up or condescending.
Anyway.

At one stage I was begging to feel anything even anger or dread or anxiety. Of course none of these are desirable emotions and I would've preferred to feel any of the following: happiness, excitement, pleasure (Emma, Lauren, Jacky - collectively get your minds out of the gutter), competent, adequate, cheerful, dutiful, elated, desirable, confident, energetic, free, interested, intelligent, passionate, graceful, selfless, satisfied, qualified, warm, needed, or even just slightly memorable.

Unfortunately it took a while to feel like any of those and I suppose, in a way I still don't feel completely 100% of any of those...not even the bad ones. But that's ok. I suppose now I just feel content.

So Emma, you're probably wondering why it is that I addressed this blog to you, well that's because I have to tell you just one thing:
If you're still feeling this way, which I hope you're not, all you have to do is hold on. Take the advice of the Wilson Phillips song 'Hold On' - 'Don't you know things can change? Things'll go your way, if you hold on for one more day.'
Maybe that's a bit pussy-ish but I still think you should take those words into consideration.

Oops!

Sorry fellow bloggers and readers for my lack of contribution to this wonderful site! I haven't very dedicated to either Don't Drop The Balloon or A Way To Relieve The Boredom. Sorry times a billion!
I swear I'll try to do more for the site - I pressed the 'I like it' button on my 'Stumble Upon' tab so we are now registered with 'Stumble Upon'. That means that if anyone is interested in either people or blogs or people & blogs then there is the small chance that they will be sent to Don't Drop The Balloon.
So that's all I've done for the progress of this blog, I just need to be reminded every now and then to SAY something on here or I'll forget.
My excuse is that I quit my crap arse job so I haven't got anything to complain about for the minute.


Maybe I'll write something about the trials and tribulations that come with unrequited love...maybe.

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i would quickly like to preface this with a coupld of small notes. 1) im listening to country music. depressing, slit-you-wrists-to kind of music and 2) I know i have sworn on here before. But that was only once for twice. and i feel that (at least once) it was in context.
therefore, i have replaced a certain word in this section. i feel it is a seamless replace and that you wont be able to figure out what the original word was, or indeed notice the new word at all.
now, onto my blogging.

duck it. duck it all. duck it all to ducking hell.
i mean, seriously, there are THREE ducking DAYS until the holidays start, and you tell us NOW that the dates have changed and we're needed Thursday-Sunday instead of Monday-Thursday??
seriously. DUCK IT.
do you realise what me knowing this at the ducking beginning would have ducking meant????
it would have meant i could have swapped the shift i have to work the Sunday before, with a different Sunday. and do you know what that would have ducking meant??
that i could go on ducking holiday with my ducking family, instead of staying in ducking ballarat and moving from house to ducking house for a ducking week, just to enable me to go to those ducking things.
why would i do that instead of ducking going with them in the ducking first place? because im ducking dedicated. when i say i'll ducking do something im ducking passionate about, i ducking do it, and i do it ducking properly.
in telling my family this news, one of my parents reactions was, well see what flights are available, and maybe we can fly you out and get your sunday changed and you can spend some time with us and it will be a lovely family holiday and everyone will have fun ...............
The others? "you'll just have to twiddle your thumbs around here"
im sorry, what???
at least ducking PRETEND your ducking upset that if we had known this i could have DUCKING COME WITH YOU ALL. In saying that, it makes you sound like you're glad im ducking staying here. i know this is not the case, you're parents love you and all that shit, and i realise i wouldn't have been able to ducking come out at this late stage, but all im saying is, if you'd ducking PRETENDED maybe i wouldn't have such violent thoughts, and the phrase 'i'll invite people around and get ducked just be-ducking-cause.' going through my head. nothing will come of these thoughts. but they are ducking there.
and they're making me say duck a lot.

DUCKING HELL.

if you haven't figured out that im pissed off. you're a ducking idiot. get the duck away from me.

also. remember how i mentioned the whole 'if im passionate about something ill ducking do it properly?' sometimes this requires some ducking co-operation from other ducking people. the reason you're SUPPOSED to be at these ducking things is to ducking LEARN the ducking thing so you know it inside and out and can quote it almost as well as i can. so ducking stay in the ducking room and ducking learn it, okay? and to do this, it helps if you ducking SHOW THE DUCK UP. and if you can't, tell ME, alright, not someone who can pass the ducking message on to me, TELL ME. and ducking tell me as soon as you ducking know. also, grow the duck up, and if you have something you want to ducking say about me, say it to my ducking face. don't ducking bitch about me, and have me find out through other ducking people. and you know what, if you're going to act like whiny little baby and cry to some kids about what ive done or said, or what you think i don't have power/ability/ducking guts to do, get the duck OUT OF HERE. i don't want you if you're going to act like that. i also dont want you if you're going to lie to me, or put on some ridiculous act just to try and get sympathy off me. harden up. ive had what you've got, i know what its like, and if id volunteered for something like thiswhen i had it, i'd ducking show up.

and you know what? it's only going to get ducking worse from here on in. believe it or not, so far ive been nice. keep shitting me off, and this will change. I have no problem ducking yelling at people. ask around, i used to do it often and realy rather ducking well. and i can be mean. dear god can i be MEAN.

why do I not say these things to peoples faces you may ask? why am i so hypocritical and whiny?

becuase i am a good girl.

and good girls don't cause waves. but i can. and i will if i need to.

consider yourselves warned.

Aww. Duckies =)

Does Anybody Else Actually Still Read/Post On This???

YAY:

• Oscar Wilde
• Fans
• Cyanide and Happiness
• Making Boys Pregnant
• Acting
• Laughing Till It Hurts
• Is It A Good Idea To Mircowave This?
  

NAY:

• Sore Ankles (still)

You May Be Wondering

about my previous post and its layout.
Then again, you may not.
either way, im going to give it a brief blurb here.
most of you know how lazy i am.
its a fact.
sometimes, i just dont want to have to think to hard.
and when i was watching a ridiculously awesome highly intelligent full of good plot movie like i do sometimes, a girl wrote an In, Out list.
admittedly hers was hells more bitchy than mine.
but i liked the idea of just being able to write very little words, but still tell people a vague ness of whats going on.
also, it gives the opportunity for explanations/expansion in the comments section if people are interested in a particular note of mine, and the opportunity to skip over something if they Just. Don't. Care.
so i guess im saying, expect more of them.
and here is todays:

IN:

• Dave-hugs
• Cyril
• Ice Packs
• Spider Solitaire
• Shannon and Sam Work Days
• Free Water
• Enjoying What You Do
• Vaseline

OUT:

• Being Uber Late And Not Letting The Appropriate People Know
• Falling Over
• Painful Ankles
• Ice Packs Being to Cold (yes im a wuss =p)
• People Kissing Other People When They're Already In A Relationship
• Dry Lips
• Not Getting Paid For Enjoying What You Do =( =P
• Overuse Of Emoticons

Things that are

IN:

• CORRECT Stage Plans
• (Free) Pizza
• Abe-hugs
• Apples
• fmylife.com
• Blankies
• Disguising Crisps As Real Dinner Food
• Flavoured Water

OUT:

• INCORRECT stage plans
• Real Mineral Water
• Chandeliers
• Forgetting There Are Pencils in Your Pocket and Having Them Jab Your Hip
• Spider Solitare With Four Suits
• Weekend Commitments
• Complex or Taxing Thoughts

I guess I don't really have that much to say

which will come as a total shock to everyone.
but i guess i do have stuff to say, but saying it here isn't really a good idea.
I'm all for public forums, and i'm never one to shy away from venting about people/things, but i doubt these people would appreciate the world wide web hearing about them.
you know what i've discovered lately? facebook tells you things you need to know faster than the people who should be telling you these things.
or rather, when someone has a bit of information that you kind of need to know, apparently it's okay to comment someone elses facebook status with this information, multiple hours before telling you it.
sometimes the interweb sucks.
i havent been feeling very well lately. not physically. aside from a runny nose and aching bones i'm fine. but mentally, or socially, or however the hell you want to phrase it.
whatever.
you know what i like?
having fun.
not just little bits of fun.
but the kind of fun where you don't care who's watching, and you'll sing and dance and yell and laugh till your sides hurt and smile till you're cheeks ache.
i'm not having fun at the moment.
i want to throw things.
i threw my phone.
don't worry. it didn't break.
but it did make me feel a little better.
there was a scene in a movie a watched today (if any ones interested it was he's just not that into you) where this woman was pissed off at her husband coz he slept with another woman, and lied to her about having quit smoking. and you know what she did?
smashed a mirror.
just lifted it off the wall and threw it on the ground.
i would like to do that. break something.
the 7 years bad luck can just be added onto my already unending sentence of it.

huh.

i think i may have said something back at the beginning of this years posts about how i was going to try to be less of a whining bitch this time round.

i guess a leopard can't change its spots.

Where is the title of this blog from? (For those who aren't aware)

This is thanks to 'http://www.funnyjunk.com/funny_pictures/15624/Dont+Drop+The+Balloon/'

Oh the hilarity.

Lost In Austen

Just thought i'd let everyone know that Lost In Austen is awesome!!! Thanks for making me watch it jacky! And whenever life is gettin’ me down, I shall be sure to go downtown.

Once upon a time...

there was this pie, right?

and there was also this Vegemite sandwich.

and this Vegemite sandwich? yeah, it's evil.

and it was plotting AGAINST the pie.

and that's just not cool.

so the pie was like,

'you know what?'

and i was like

'what?'

and the pie was like

'I'm gonna fix this.'

and i was like

'cool'

and then the pie walked away.

so the pie tried reasoning with the sandwich

and the sandwich tried killing the pie

and in the end the pie was like

'fuck this'

and ate the sandwich.

the end.

p.s.

I was the pie!!

p.p.s

that''s just for you LozRobin =)

Chapter Three – Evelien Quant, two weeks later...

Where do I start?
School’s finished.
Theodore has his P’s.
Renée’s heading off to uni next year to study Pharmaceuticals.
Imogene and Ethan broke up because Ethan slept with Kayla.
And I, in an attempt to find my baby, got myself kicked out of home.

Chapter Two-Theodore Ambrogio, five weeks later...

It was weird – how much can change in just one week. In the last six Evie and I had gone from friends, to dating, to boyfriend and girlfriend. All which I was grateful for, but I was somehow unprepared for all the drama she seemed to be trying to cause. In the days leading up to my great confession I had thought about all the situations that could come about. All the things I thought she might say, none of them involved using the words ‘Do you want to help me find my baby when school’s finished?’

More things i've learnt. This one doesn't make me smile.

Every now and again, you see something that makes you think 'you know what? humanity isn't all that bad'. Like the pure awesomeness that is musicals such as Avenue Q. And yes, i think this is a very appropriate musical to mention in this post.
Then you see something that absolutely shatters these thoughts. Such as a website with the heading 'Love Gods Way'. Nothing wrong with that, however, when the sub heading of said website is CHOPS. It does make me question things when this acronym is followed with this picture:



fucktards.
If homosexuals, bisexuals, those questioning or anyone else wants to be 'changed' im sure they'll let someone know. Actually, screw that. Why should we even put the thought that they need to be changed into their head? I have heard that this website was created by a so-called comedian, but even if one or two people find this 'hilarious' i think it just hurts homosexuality in the long run.
There is nothing wrong with being attracted to someone who is the same sex as you. Or of being attracted to both sexes. I have had this rant before, and i will continue to have it as long as there are people telling me that the things i think and feel are WRONG. You can tell me you disagree with these things and i will respect your opinion, because you're not ramming your thoughts and feelings down my throat, but as soon and you tell me there's something wrong I can get rather vocal and, well, you can just shove your opinion somewhere unpleasant and please stop talking to me.
There is nothing wrong with being being homosexual! I am aware that most of the people reading this blog have had this conversation with me and know how vehement i can be on the subject, but sometimes i just need to get things out of my system. Y'all know how it is.
It just really shits me when people not only go around telling people they're just flat out wrong, but when they throw in that they should stop being who they are and be 'ordinary', another pet hate of mine.
I understand that some people aren't comfortable with homosexuality, bisexuality, trans sexuality or anything like that. And i accept this. It may be the way they've been raised, the people they know, who cares. That's how they feel and that's okay. I know, and am friends with, some people who feel this way. But they know who i am, and they don't try and repress or 'change' me, or tell me who i am is wrong. Just as i don't tell them that they should see things my way. But i do put forward my views and why i feel this way, and listen to them when they tell me why they feel the way they do. And i respect that this is how they feel.
Who i choose to date, or who i happen to fall in love with, will not be determined by that persons gender. Love is love. Why should we be assumed straight until we say otherwise?

Coolest thing i've learnt so far this week:

Guess what movie sequal is in the process of being made!!

Go on, guess!!!


Give up? alright, ill give some hints.
Its going to be 3D in 'selected cinemas'
Its the same name as its predesessors, but with the number 3 tacked onto it.
its being released on june 18 next year in usa, and june 24 here in ole aussie.

If you haven't googled it yet, then i'll enlighten you all now

IT'S TOY STORY THREE!!!!!
i totally can't wait =)